The road back to submission

Having been out of the Lifestyle for the best part of 3 years now it seems strange to be back here once more. I decided back then i would never make a go of my vanilla relationship unless i had a breal from the Lifestyle, and i did honestly think i could put it all behind me and concentrate on becoming the traditional wife with 2.4 kids but i have found its not that simple

Its like the whole submission and slavery part of the Lifestyle is a ... and while you think you have kicked the habit it just comes swarming back when you least expect it. This is what happened to me after about a year out of the Lifestyle and i found myself sneaking onto a few sites to chat with people. I did alot of flirting at first and talked about doing things although i didnt really think i would do them, but the more i talked about it the more i realised i wanted it for real really.

I have always been drawn to Dominant men and sometimes dangerous men in my past, and to say my partner is upset i am looking to go down this road again is an under statement, but he is prepared to work with me on it and thats what we are doing.

I have met a couple of people recently who have really tempted me back into the Lifestyle, one of which being Andy who has persuaded me to come back onto this site and to write my blog. I have explained to him that the blog will be pretty tame compared to what it used to be but he says that is fine so here i go. If i am boring everyone to tears please tell me or Andy though okay.

Andy has encouraged me to think more about being used for sex again and i have had those slutty feeling running through me that used to be there. Suddenly i am looking at men again and thinking about the size of their equipment as i used to and its exciting. I have always been a real flirt on the dance floor and my partner vcannot dance at allso i have always been sort of fair game there i guess, but Andy has recently encouraged me to wear stockings & suspenders once more with no panties and to give a little glimpse now and againto men i like the look of. This has taken him sometime to persuade me to do this but the results have been staggering.

I went to a coffee shop dressed in this way a few days ago and i ended up getting propositioned by a really attractive guy and it made me feel so good. He made it plain that he wanted me for sex and wanted to take me to his bathchelor pad for the lunch break, and i have to tell you how much i was tempted to do so. In the end he gave me his business card and told me to call him sometime and i still have it tucked away in my purse along with the secret supply of condoms i have always carried in my bag just in case.

Thats not to say i have cheated on my partner as yet but the temptation is there right girls.

Anyway i am going to leave it at this for now, if you want to know more about the journey back please give me some feedback here and i will continue. I know its all quite tame since my old blogs but you never know where things may end up.

Ann
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